My journey to find motivation started a long time ago. When I was a child and later, as a university student, I had motivation to do some things, like playing computer games. But later on, I lost most of my motivation. Even things that gave me joy, like watching anime, I’d have no motivation to start doing. I had read books and went through psychotherapy, but nothing would stick. I’d feel excited right after reading yet another book, but a few days after it would all return back to normal, and I would struggle with motivation again.
It has really changed, when I read The Heart to Start: Stop Procrastinating & Start Creating. This book has stuck, and I’ve been re-reading highlights since I had first read it.
What’s wrong with my motivation?
The truth is not that I don’t have motivation, but that the motivation I’ve been using is bad. I would use the following as motivation:
- If I don’t do it, something bad will happen.
- Perfectionism (to polish what I created, while I may not be interested in the project).
- It’s useful for my career (even though I chose technologies based on how much I like them, it was still bad).
- I started it, so I have to continue.
All the above reasons don’t make for good motivation, and I would feel bad about them, but I had no other motivation (except for very short random bursts).
New kind of motivation that I’m using
When I started doing a brew timer, I was curious about using images as a part of UI, and I wanted a timer that allowed me to wait for my tea to cool down.
Today, when I thought about continuing with the project, I thought of things I can polish (perfectionism), how I could use it to find a job (useful for my career), and a bit of finishing it since I started it. But that motivation is bad, and I realise it now.
So, I tried to find better motivation. And I found it:
- I’d like an ability to just wait for cool down, without brewing first. Because I brew some herbal teas in a thermos, when I pour from the thermos, it’s already brewed and I just need to wait for it to cool down.
- I’d like to play with the idea of using HTML range element (a slider) to enter brew time.
And so, I was able to change my motivation this time.
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